Catherine

its like i don’t have control over my own feelings anymore. i let peoples opinions get the best of me. all i want is the courage to make my own decisions and just be happy again, be myself. what is happening to me?

So I don’t know what got to me. I’ve always told myself I need to balance everything. Balance, balance, balance. I just got so caught up. I just hope from here we can move on

Every days getting harder and harder. Why am I feeling like this? What is going on? All I want are answers.

Whatever decision I make I hope its the right choice

there is just some things that you have to learn to deal with. i try to deal with it best as i can especially with all these rules. right now though i feel like i’m about to give up. i don’t know whats going on. i guess its certain things that both of us are going through individually but i feel like we are slowly fading. as of now i just want to get away i want nothing to worry about it. i don’t want to have to worry if i do something wrong, i don’t want to be stressed. I HONESTLY JUST DON’T KNOW. i’ve been going to sleep every night so upset. i don’t know how to be me anymore or how to feel. its awful to say that but i really don’t know who i am anymore. i just wish things would be back to normal and how it was when we were first together. those were the days i cherish.

i’m having an emotional break down. i feel like nothings going right. lately i’ve been in such depressing moods and overwhelmed. i just wish i could understand, understand myself. i’m getting told do this, do that. i can’t take it anymore. right now all i want to do is just go away. pack my stuff and leave. i need to get away from home for a while to think about things. i just need to understand and find my true self again. everything right now is so confusing to me. i’m a mess. i have been and i’ve been hiding it and its building up in me and its getting to a point where i can’t take it anymore. i just need to let go.

fuck me, i don’t know anymore. i don’t know about anything. ugh please i need answers to all the problems i’m having. i hate this feeling. i HATE it. i just wish everything was worry free or that i didn’t always get “feelings” like this.